New Beginnings

New Beginnings

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Writer.Blogger.Lover of words. Yep, that’s me. There’s something about laying my feelings out on pen and paper or putting fingers to the keyboard that soothes my soul.

Just as a piano player plays their heart out, so do I on the keys of this Mac 🙂

The past year and a half has been a whirlwind.  Lots of ups and downs, but if I’m being honest, more downs than ups. Of course I realize that my downs compared to other’s downs aren’t so bad after all. Nonetheless, though, it’s still my life and my struggles are mine and they are very real.

Being a business owner is so hard. It’s something everyone dreams of at some point in their life. Images of what it would be like seem grand. Flashes of financial & time freedom illuminate in the mind.

Unfortunately for me, neither of those two have happened yet. In fact, the opposite to a degree.  But that’s okay, because as hard as it is, it is what it is.  I choose to carry on. I choose to seek God’s plan for my life. I choose to go with the ebb and flow.

In the midst of a possible career change coming, I will always pursue my writing. This blog is fresh and new just like this season, chapter, place, (whatever you wanna call it) in my life. I want to document it all and years from now reflect on every minute.

As I sit here and lay my heart out, I imagine my kids and grandkids oh so many years from now discovering little pieces of me through my words.

Here are all of my LOVES

  1. Words
  2. Books
  3. Writing
  4. Reading
  5. Plans
  6. When “some” plans fall through
  7. List
  8. Schedules and structure, neither of which I can stick to
  9. Goats
  10. Miniature Versions of any and everything
  11. Fall
  12. A Crackling Fire
  13. Italian food
  14. Dreaming
  15. The living word of God
  16. Ink Pens
  17. Paper clips (cause they just hold stuff together)
  18. Traditions
  19. Blue jeans and t-shirts
  20. Chocolate
  21. And lastly, but absolutely never least JESUS Christ, my savior, my redeemer.

 

 

 

 

Time Flies

Time Flies

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What a cliche. What a truth.  Been over two months since  I last wrote. Day to day it’s hard to see a change in life. but boy when you get about 60 or 90 days down the road, it’s then that you see a change.

Sometimes it’s good, sometimes it isn’t great, but it’s inevitable.  You’ll probably hear me talk a bunch about change, I resist it so much.  I need to learn to embrace it.

This summer we have not done anything fun at all really. Been quite uneventful as far as fun stuff.

Been a lot of changes on the family side.  I feel closer to my family now than I ever have. Not just on my side, but on my husbands as well.

Been going through some things with my kids, but I am getting an even clearer glimpse of God’s deep unconditional love for me through the trials and happenings of my kids.

My thoughts tonight are random. I have so much I want to pour out. So much deeper I want to go.

My uncle is back home after being moved away for 36ish years.

Switched from iPhone to Android. Literally I bounce between what was I thinking to oh this is neat. haha

My mom is facing some serious medical issues, we’ll know more in November. I am praying. Praying that the results are not what they seem.

My kids are going through growing phases, teenager stuff, pre-teen stuff. Just ugh.

Still having to make hard decisions where business is concerned.

My family and I are still trying to find a church home. I love church, I believe in it. I know some people have been burned and put out with church, but I really wish they would give it a go. God’s word says Let’s not give up meeting together as some are in the habit of doing. I am not giving up.

No matter what I face, God is good and His love and mercy is new everyday.

So what’s new with you?

 

 

Getting it all together

Getting it all together

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For far too long I have been on a roller coaster of having it all together and being mad at myself that I don’t.   It’s like there is this me that craves a schedule and structure and then there is the me that is all over the place. 

I know WHO I want to be, who I feel like I should be.  But somehow it’s not panning out. For the longest I thought I was too hard on myself, but after reflecting on it, maybe I haven’t been hard enough.

Being self employed is a blessing and a curse.

I realized today that when we are on a road and it has a ton of “junk” pot holes, road blocks, etc… we deal. We deal because we think it’s getting us where we want to go. Just one more mile.   Today was the first day I took a turn down another road. Where it will lead only the good Lord in heaven knows. I’ll lean on Him, have faith and keep Him first.

I have made a choice to take a chance to make a change. 

Later ya’ll, have a great rest of the week.

 

What is a father

What is a father

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A father isn’t someone whose fathered a child, it’s a man that puts himself last no matter what the cost.

It’s a man that lovingly disciplines his child no matter how much it hurts his heart to do so.

It’s a man that gives his time to teach them the things of this life or pour into their child’s hobby when it’s the only extra time he had but he gave it away.

It’s the man who gets up to work whether sick or well to make sure his family is taken care of.

It’s the man who gets up to go to work putting on shoes that are long overdue for replacing, but he carries on in them anyway because his child’s feet are constantly growing and he’d rather see them in shoes that fit properly.

It’s the man who doesn’t take the last helping of food, but looks at his family to make sure they’ve had enough.

It’s the man who stops to listen to what their child says even when he’s deep into a television show or game.

It’s a man that leads his family on his knees by seeking the ONE who created them all.

It’s a man who teaches the most by actions and not words.

Any man can spend a night of fun and passion fulfilling his needs and desires, but it takes a real man to spend the rest of his life fulfilling the needs and desires of his family.